Sometimes the only time I have with my thoughts, the only time it is relatively quiet (except for the humming of the heat pump, the bubbling of the fish tanks, the creaking of the house as temperatures change and the wind kicks up, the dishwasher, the fridge, the cats...) is when everyone else is asleep.
It doesn't happen often...even when they're all in bed, sometimes I am back and forth to Sprout's room to shush her back to sleep when something disturbs her and she cries out. Sometimes I am too tired, or feel guilty for wasting the little bit of time that Someone and I have together on the rare nights he stays over, or I need to fold laundry.
Once in a while, though...once in a while I am up late, like the old days, just me and whatever is rattling around in my brain.
Tonight is such a night. Someone is staying over but her went to bed, worn slap out from a day of working out in the yard at his place. I needed to stay up and work a bit, trying to get a slew of Etsy listings done for K2 to have up for Cyber Monday - look for Unleashthegoddess on Etsy if you want to shop a talented artist and find unique items to gift or wear yourself (shameless plug). I finished a few minutes ago, and I could go to bed, snuggle up to Someone, enjoy his warm presence...but I need...truly, need...a few minutes.
Week after relentless, sometimes grinding, week of being a single mother homeschooling her kids wears me out. Week after endless week of noise and movement and chaos leaves me breathless and in need of just a little peace, and as it stands the only way I can get some of that precious peace is to snatch it from the wee hours.
I can sleep some other time. Right now I am going to get my think on.